Had a great couple of days! I went dress shopping with my daughter, we got our hair done, nails did and went to lunch. These are the things that are important. I almost decided not to go to the Club’s New Year’s Eve party but then my husband started up with me again and that was it. I’m going. More to get away from him than anything but I also can’t wait to wear the dress I bought. I usually don’t like getting dressed up since I’ve plumped out, but I love this dress. And I look pretty good in it!
I ant to bring in this New Year right. As I sit and get ready, Eric keeps walking by the bedroom. He looks in, totally mopey, doesn’t say anything then walks away. You know, if he just said, “I’d really like you to stay home tonight Nicole. Let’s get some wine, sit in front of the fire and bring in the New Year together…a new start”…I would stay home in a heartbeat. But this is the problem. He won’t. He just wants me to stay here and be miserable with him, when he was the one who caused the misery to begin with! Am I wrong here? He isn’t doing what he needs to do to fix this. Personally I think he’s going through a mid-life crisis. Maybe I am too but I wasn’t until he turned my life upside down. I have to stop feeling guilty about this. I want to enjoy myself tonight.
My New Year’s Resolutions:
Make myself a top priority!
Keep writing! Maybe get a novel started?
Get healthier and fit
Have a better view of myself. Build up that self-esteem!
AND…Don’t let my husband drag me down
Have a safe and happy New Year all!! See you next year!