What has happened to my life? I just found out that my husband in the dungeon has been seeing my older sister. Okay, she’s just my step sister and I can’t stand her anyway or else I’d be going bat shit crazy right now. At this moment, I’m just regular crazy. This goes beyond crossing the line. This hurdles into Jerry Springer territory. What the hell is the matter with him? I’m disgusted with her although I can sort of understand a lonely, pathetic spinster lusting after a younger, off limits guy. But him? Ugh. What am I supposed to do with this information, besides throw up? I guess nothing. I need to not think about it, like ever, ever again.
What makes certain people capable of “crossing the line” anyway? Like mothers who go after their daughter’s boyfriends, teachers or coaches who seduce students, PRIESTS! Some would say it probably stems from some sort of abuse in their past. But I don’t buy that. If you were abused, you’d know how horrible it made you feel so wouldn’t you make sure you NEVER did that to someone else? I have a history of abuse, nothing huge, just a piano teacher who had wandering hands. But it made me more sensitive to the issue. I don’t know. People are fucked up. I don’t usually let things get to me but this has really done a number on me. I may need to go on a little vacation before I’m forced to take one…in a rubber room or behind bars.